Former UFC and Bellator fighter War Machine tried to commit suicide in his jail cell last week, getting saved at the last minute by a corrections officer.
Since TMZ reported that story, they have since been able to obtain a copy of the Brazilian jiu-jitsu brown belt’s suicide letter from the incident.
I die proudly when it is no longer possible to live proudly – Nietzsche. If you are reading this then it must be a rap. I refuse to live a parasitic life, relying on taxes and the generosity of friends for food and shelter, never being able to give back … To Christy, my one: I truly love you and planned on being with you forever … Finding what I found that night was devastating to me, more than you will ever know. Not just the unfaithfulness, but the way u cared for him and protected him … I’m a good person with a huge heart and everyone who knows me knows that, especially Christy.
The three-page handwritten letter also has War Machine—also known by his birth name, Jon Koppenhaver—say his goodbyes to friends and family members before saying “I was never meant to live in this era anyway. Follow your dreams and think for yourselves.”
The Ultimate Fighter alumnus is currently in the Clark County Detention Center and is facing 32 different criminal charges related to an alleged brutal beating of porn-star ex-girlfriend Christy Mack and former reality TV star Corey Thomas, per KTNV.
While Mack is still recovering from the injuries she sustained on August 9, War Machine has previously stated he was “ambushed” by Mack and Thomas on that fateful night and only acted in self defense, per TMZ.
A preliminary hearing was originally scheduled for October 17 but was postponed when War Machine’s attorneys began trying to work out a plea deal with prosecutors, per Las Vegas Review-Journal.
War Machine hasn’t competed in mixed martial arts in a year, most recently getting choked unconscious by Ron Keslar at Bellator 104 last October.
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