MMA’s Catch-22 Drug Trap: Why So Many Fighters Fall Into Addiction


(MMA competition can provide the stability necessary for a person to beat addiction. It can also create the physical and emotional chaos that leads to drugs in the first place.)

By Santino DeFranco

For months I’ve wanted to get started on an article discussing drug use among MMA athletes, but just haven’t gotten my fingers to the keyboard. For some reason, after seeing Dennis Siver’s positive test for HCG recently — probably the least worrisome drug I’ve ever seen someone test positive for — I’ve decided to get going with it.

In addition to the positive tests for performance enhancing substances that we’ve seen dozens of times in this sport, there has been an alarming number of positive drug tests for recreational and prescription drugs as well. We’ve also seen countless fighters wage personal battles with substance abuse outside of the ring/cage, with several ending in death — accidental as well as suicide. It’s the recreational drugs and prescription painkillers that have caught my attention as something that may need to be addressed.

After seeing so many fighters struggle with drug abuse over the years like Joe Riggs, Drew Fickett, Karo Parisyan, along with those that have passed away from drug-related circumstances like Shane Del Rosario and Shelby Walker, I started to wonder: Is MMA leading athletes to become addicted to drugs, or are people who are more prone to drug use entering the world of mixed martial arts?

What I found out is that the answer to both previous questions is yes. Those more prone to use drugs do enter MMA, and MMA in return, leads those to use drugs and subsequently become addicted to them. It’s a hell of a lot more complex than that, but simply put, MMA fighters, as well as boxers, are kind of screwed.


(MMA competition can provide the stability necessary for a person to beat addiction. It can also create the physical and emotional chaos that leads to drugs in the first place.)

By Santino DeFranco

For months I’ve wanted to get started on an article discussing drug use among MMA athletes, but just haven’t gotten my fingers to the keyboard. For some reason, after seeing Dennis Siver’s positive test for HCG recently — probably the least worrisome drug I’ve ever seen someone test positive for — I’ve decided to get going with it.

In addition to the positive tests for performance enhancing substances that we’ve seen dozens of times in this sport, there has been an alarming number of positive drug tests for recreational and prescription drugs as well. We’ve also seen countless fighters wage personal battles with substance abuse outside of the ring/cage, with several ending in death — accidental as well as suicide. It’s the recreational drugs and prescription painkillers that have caught my attention as something that may need to be addressed.

After seeing so many fighters struggle with drug abuse over the years like Joe Riggs, Drew Fickett, Karo Parisyan, along with those that have passed away from drug-related circumstances like Shane Del Rosario and Shelby Walker, I started to wonder: Is MMA leading athletes to become addicted to drugs, or are people who are more prone to drug use entering the world of mixed martial arts?

What I found out is that the answer to both previous questions is yes. Those more prone to use drugs do enter MMA, and MMA in return, leads those to use drugs and subsequently become addicted to them. It’s a hell of a lot more complex than that, but simply put, MMA fighters, as well as boxers, are kind of screwed.

First, lets take a look at the “those prone to drug abuse enter MMA” concept. In a 2009 article for the Dana Foundation, Brenda Patoine wrote,  “There is a well-established relationship between high sensation-seeking and drug use.” Virtually every expert on the subject agrees that there is a relationship between “thrill seeking” — whether that be sex, drugs, bungee jumping or trying new things — and drug abuse. It sure makes sense, doesn’t it? If you’re searching for adrenaline you go to a high spot, jump off of it, and pull a parachute. You land, are filled with endorphins, dopamine and serotonin and feel damn good. But, then you want that feeling again. So you go to the same elevated spot and repeat the process, but this time it’s not the same; it doesn’t feel quite as good. So, you find a higher spot or crazier landing strip or whatever you need to do to make the jump more exciting to replicate the same feeling of euphoria as before.

Sounds kind of like the beginnings of any drug addiction, huh? Well, that’s because it is. Not only just the process, but the chemicals as well. And considering that both drug-addiction and thrill-seeking behavior increase activity in the insular cortex, and both are highly dependent upon dopamine, it’s hard not to see the similarities. Since our brains are pushing us in the direction of thrill-seeking behavior, in the form of jumping into a cage and fighting another human behind a closed chain-linked fence, we are already predisposed to the types of behaviors that lead to drug abuse.

This is where the real fun begins.

Now that the thrill-seeking, predisposed, drug-addict is training and competing in MMA he or she sustains countless injuries, and is prescribed what? That’s right, painkillers — opiates. A substance that releases the same chemical in the brain as the thrill of fighting in front of others or jumping off of buildings, but this time, the person doesn’t even have to get up off of the couch. Pop the pill, the pain’s gone, and the same feeling of euphoria is there! Yay! Except, at some point addiction sets in, and then the person doesn’t even want to get high, he just wants to avoid the physical withdrawals of the drug — not fun at all. A few to test positive for opiates during post-fight drug tests include Bas Rutten, Karo Parysian, James Irvin, and Chris Leben. Those are just a few who have tested positive, and doesn’t include all of the assorted pills flying around the mouths of fighters while not in camp.

But maybe the fighter is lucky, and he avoids any serious injuries. He’ll be okay, right? If I were a magic 8-ball I’d say, “The odds are not in his favor.” The reason? The stresses of professional sports on an athlete are insane. There are the constant physical demands, but there are a ton of mental demands too. There’s the amazing high of victory (getting your hand raised in the cage after a long camp), and trying to recreate that feeling. Then, there’s the depression of losing, and trying to eliminate that feeling. In MMA, there are the anxieties of paying bills and having to pull out of fights due to injury, or maybe your opponent pulls out, or the show doesn’t pay you, or any number of things that lead you to pull your hair out, which is probably why so many fighters shave their heads.

In all seriousness, though, the demands of the spotlight projected on professional athletes are very hard to deal with, and not just in MMA, but in all sports. Olympic swimmer Amanda Beard’s swimming career was haunted by clinical depression, bulimia, and drug and alcohol abuse according to a 2012 article written for Bloomberg, which also mentions Australian Olympian Geoff Huegill‘s strugle with depression and substance abuse. All of those bouts of depression and anxiety, coupled with the availability of drugs, can lead one to a slippery slope — and that’s not even mentioning the involvement of steroids, which are known to cause depression when athletes cycle off of them. I’ve personally come into contact with many fighters that have claimed bouts of depression, and recently Bellator champion Pat Curran has come out publicly discussing his own bouts of depression.

And it continues. Yes, there is even another tie between fighters and drug use. Insane, right?

Most of the previous reasons for MMA athletes to fall victim to drug abuse can be applied to other sports, but this next point is very specific to combat sports athletes who receive repeated blows to the head as part of the job. Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy (CTE) is real and it’s finally starting to get the recognition as a major downfall of professional sports, especially football and any form of pugilism.

CTE, as defined by the Sports Legacy Institute] is “a progressive degenerative disease of the brain found in athletes (and others) with a history of repetitive brain trauma. This trauma, which includes multiple concussions, triggers progressive degeneration of the brain tissue, including the build-up of an abnormal protein called tau. These changes in the brain can begin months, years, or even decades after the last concussion or end of active athletic involvement. The brain degeneration is associated with memory loss, confusion, impaired judgment, paranoia, impulse control problems, aggression, depression, and, eventually, progressive dementia.”

Many suffering from CTE aren’t even aware that CTE exists, let alone are aware that they may be suffering from it. Instead of seeking professional treatment, drugs and alcohol regularly are used to treat the symptoms, creating more problems, and, often times, leading to deeper addiction.

So, there you have it: MMA fighters are screwed. Though maybe it doesn’t have to be that way. If we demand that our athletes be drug free, we sure as hell need to guarantee that fighters are aware of the problems that may occur with substance abuse in their chosen sport. Coaches need to make sure fighters are able to distinguish between minor aches and pains, and real injuries. Coaches also need to be able to recognize a fighter who has been consuming too many substances, whether those happen to be painkillers, alcohol, recreational drugs, or steroids. Athletes need to be educated about the pitfalls and dangers of drug use, and be aware of what they are putting in their bodies in general. They also need to be cognizant of the strains the sport will place on a person, and that they aren’t supermen, regardless of how dominant they are in the cage; help is available to anyone, and we often need it. Doctors need to focus more on preventative medicine than prescription medicine, and be aware of the drug-seeking signs exhibited by the addicted. And, last, fans need to have a little compassion too. Fighters, and athletes in general, are people just like everyone else. We all have our problems.

It seems that there isn’t one single reason why fighters are prone to becoming addicted to alcohol and drugs, just as there isn’t one single reason anyone becomes addicted to anything, but a myriad of factors play a role — more-so for athletes, especially those that get punched in the face for a living.

Santino DeFranco is a retired MMA fighter who you may remember from his stint on TUF 9, and accompanying fighter blogs for CagePotato. He’s been writing a lot lately. You can follow him on twitter at @tinodefranco.

Does the UFC Need to Pay for Athlete Rehab Like the WWE?


(Photo via Getty)

Chris Leben posted a tweet earlier today that jolted an MMA world still asleep in post-UFN 36 lull:

I wish I would’ve drove truck last 10yrs, then at least is have insurance to see a counselor. Ufc left me broken with nithing

— Chris Leben (@cripplerufc) February 16, 2014

Any sentiment related to the UFC and how they take care of their fighters (whether it’s about pay, insurance, or what have you) is bound to be controversial. Leben’s tweet suggesting the UFC discards their fighters once they’ve outlived their usefulness and leaves them as empty, “broken” husks was no exception. A firestorm erupted on twitter and other Internet locales, with many fans insulting Leben and bashing the TUF Season 1 veteran. Their argument: Leben made more money than me, so fuck him. His drug issues are not my problem. Harsh words for a man who risked his mind and body to entertain so many.


(Photo via Getty)

By Matt Saccaro

Chris Leben posted a tweet earlier today that jolted an MMA world still asleep in post-UFN 36 lull:

Any sentiment related to the UFC and how they take care of their fighters (whether it’s about pay, insurance, or what have you) is bound to be controversial. Leben’s tweet suggesting the UFC discards their fighters once they’ve outlived their usefulness and leaves them as empty, “broken” husks was no exception. A firestorm erupted on twitter and other Internet locales, with many fans insulting Leben and bashing the TUF Season 1 veteran. Their argument: Leben made more money than me, so fuck him. His drug issues are not my problem. Harsh words for a man who risked his mind and body to entertain so many.

A shame fans didn’t express these sentiments while Leben was in the UFC and clearly had issues. But then he was a BANGER, a WARRIOR. Now, since he doesn’t collect a UFC paycheck, fans think he’s a pathetic, burned out mooch who deserves nothing but agony. We’ve said it before, but MMA fans are terrible sometimes. Furthermore, Leben was distraught over the death of his dog, which prompted his above tweet about the UFC. It’s terrible to deride a person in such circumstances.

Ailing animal aside, Leben’s tweet brings a question to the fore: Should the UFC start a rehabilitation program for their fighters?

As the UFC roster balloons and the old guard of MMA ages, more and more Chris Lebens—athletes who fought hard but perhaps partied harder—will enter the confusing, empty-feeling life of an ex-fighter. What’ll those fighters do? They can’t all get ridiculous jobs from Zuffa, nor can they all become commentators. Some will find gigs as coaches and successful gym owners, but what about the rest who lose their way and fall to their drug habits—habits they acquired because of the MMA lifestyle?

Fortunately for Leben, the UFC and Dana White reached out to help him.

Zuffa might help distressed fighters they’re partial to (guys that WARRED), but ideally the UFC would mimic the WWE’s model of rehabilitation assistance, the goal of which is “to help any former talent that may have a substance-related dependency problem.” The WWE covers all costs and “maintains regular contact with talent who have entered a rehab program or reached out for WWE assistance.”

The professional wrestling industry has a history with drug use. The grueling, 300+ day schedules combined with the constant wear and tear of taking bumps night after night is too much for some. They turn to drugs and alcohol to cope with the pain and pressure.

While competing in the UFC doesn’t require constant travel, fighting isn’t an easy occupation on the mind or body—not at the high levels, where the “Rock Star Life” can consume fighters, nor at the low levels where $8,000 to show doesn’t come close to covering your costs for the fight, and training often has to be juggled with a day job. Financial struggles are only half the problem. No fighter enters the cage injury-free. But they can only get paychecks from fighting. When injuries mount and bank accounts run dry, competing hurt is the only option. Fighters, such as Chris Leben and Karo Parisyan, turn to painkillers. Other athletes might turn to different kinds of drugs.

Perhaps it’s the UFC’s responsibility to offer some aid to competitors who succumbed to drugs to cope with the physical and mental pressures of fighting. For all of Dana White’s/Zuffa’s grandstanding, the UFC would be nowhere without the fighters. Where’s the harm in bankrolling rehab for fighters who gave the best years of their lives (and their long-term health) to the UFC?

CagePotato Presents: The James Irvin ‘Why Me?’ Timeline [INFOGRAPHIC]

In addition to being one of the least decision-prone fighters to ever grace the OctagonJames Irvin is also notorious for being the unluckiest bastard in the history of the sport. From poorly-timed injuries and ill-advised weight cuts to chemical misadventures and freak accidents, the Sandman has suffered through enough hardships to fill the careers of ten journeymen. So with the help of our friends at Havoc Store, we put together an illustrated timeline of the most unfortunate moments in Irvin’s MMA career, which you can check out after the jump.

Enjoy, share it with your friends, and show some love to Havoc Store by visiting their blog or following them on Facebook. And James? You have our sympathy, dude.

In addition to being one of the least decision-prone fighters to ever grace the OctagonJames Irvin is also notorious for being the unluckiest bastard in the history of the sport. From poorly-timed injuries and ill-advised weight cuts to chemical misadventures and freak accidents, the Sandman has suffered through enough hardships to fill the careers of ten journeymen. So with the help of our friends at Havoc Store, we put together an illustrated timeline of the most unfortunate moments in Irvin’s MMA career, which you can check out after the jump.

Enjoy, share it with your friends, and show some love to Havoc Store by visiting their blog or following them on Facebook. And James? You have our sympathy, dude.

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Chris Leben Calls His UFC 138 Painkiller Bust a ‘Cry for Help,’ Hopes for a Late 2012 Return


(Photo courtesy of Sherdog.)

Following career setbacks due to alcohol and steroids, a one-year suspension due to unapproved painkillers was the last thing that Chris Leben needed in his life. But in a recent appearance on MMAFighting.com’s The MMA Hour, Leben spoke publicly for the first time since the incident last November, saying that getting caught following his loss to Mark Munoz at UFC 138 was the best thing to ever happen to him:

I’ve battled drugs and alcohol. I’ve battled with those for my entire life. I’ve had an issue with being addicted to painkillers for years now. I had some issues with my camp and it was almost a cry for help. I knew I was going to get caught and I just didn’t care at the time. I’m extremely embarrassed, I feel like I let down the UFC, but at the same time I think getting caught is probably the best thing to ever happen to me. The UFC has been unbelievable, they sent me to a rehab facility and they really took care of me.”

As Leben tells it, he had hoped to go cold-turkey off the painkillers before the fight, but his addiction was too powerful:


(Photo courtesy of Sherdog.)

Following career setbacks due to alcohol and steroids, a one-year suspension due to unapproved painkillers was the last thing that Chris Leben needed in his life. But in a recent appearance on MMAFighting.com’s The MMA Hour, Leben spoke publicly for the first time since the incident last November, saying that getting caught following his loss to Mark Munoz at UFC 138 was the best thing to ever happen to him:

I’ve battled drugs and alcohol. I’ve battled with those for my entire life. I’ve had an issue with being addicted to painkillers for years now. I had some issues with my camp and it was almost a cry for help. I knew I was going to get caught and I just didn’t care at the time. I’m extremely embarrassed, I feel like I let down the UFC, but at the same time I think getting caught is probably the best thing to ever happen to me. The UFC has been unbelievable, they sent me to a rehab facility and they really took care of me.”

As Leben tells it, he had hoped to go cold-turkey off the painkillers before the fight, but his addiction was too powerful:

My wife had brought them to me for after the fight, and I had tapered off them for the fight, but there were some issues, a lot of stress, and I cracked. It was as simple as that. I knew they were there and I cracked. I couldn’t hold out.”

Leben says he hasn’t taken a pain pill since he got out of rehab, though he did have a brief relapse with alcohol, and is now taking Antabuse to help him stay on track. Leben now says that his life is “going really good, better than it has in a long, long time,” and that he hopes he’ll make a return to the Octagon late this year.

The question is, how long will these good times last? Can Leben make it through the rest of his career without succumbing to his old habits? While his painkiller bust might have been “the best thing to ever happen” to him, catching another suspension this late in his fighting career would be devastating, and possibly career-ending.

Before his fight against Munoz, we tried to ask Leben if he’d learned anything from his previous struggles with addiction, and he kind of jumped down our throat. It was clearly a sore subject, which makes more sense now that we know he was still very much in the grips of addiction at the time. That’s something he’ll have to struggle with the rest of his life, and hopefully it’s a fight he can win.

Related: Five MMA Fighters Who Beat Addiction

Dead MMA Fighter of the Month: Justin Levens


(Photo via the Justin Levens Remembrance Album on CombatLifestyle.com / Props to Deadspin‘s brilliant “Dead Wrestler of the Week” feature for the inspiration.)

By Ben Goldstein

All murder-suicides are shocking. Not all of them are entirely surprising.

On December 17th, 2008, UFC/WEC veteran Justin Levens and his wife Sara McLean-Levens were found dead inside their condominium in Laguna Niguel, California, both from gunshot wounds. Initial evidence suggested that Justin was the shooter. “It was a chest wound that penetrated her heart and killed her, and his was to the head,” said O. C. Sheriff Coroner’s Office spokesman Jim Amormino.

Amormino confirmed that painkillers and anti-depressants were discovered in the Levens’s home, along with the handgun Justin allegedly used to end their lives. Police had visited Justin and Sara at least twice in the previous month, once to investigate a possible drug overdose.

At the time of his death, Justin Levens was 28 years old and hadn’t won an MMA match in over two years. He’d gone 0-5 in 2007 — an agonizing year in which his close friend and IFL teammate Jeremy Williams committed suicide, also by shooting himself — and was dealt a six-month suspension by the California State Athletic Commission in July 2008 when a pre-fight drug test came back off-the-charts for the painkiller Oxymorphone. For the last five months of his life, Levens was unable to earn a living as a fighter, and fell deeper into a spiral of depression and prescription drug use.

Justin didn’t leave a suicide note. There were no signs of a struggle. He and Sara had already been dead for four days when their bodies were discovered.


(Photo via the Justin Levens Remembrance Album on CombatLifestyle.com / Props to Deadspin‘s brilliant “Dead Wrestler of the Week” feature for the inspiration.)

By Ben Goldstein

All murder-suicides are shocking. Not all of them are entirely surprising.

On December 17th, 2008, UFC/WEC veteran Justin Levens and his wife Sara McLean-Levens were found dead inside their condominium in Laguna Niguel, California, both from gunshot wounds. Initial evidence suggested that Justin was the shooter. “It was a chest wound that penetrated her heart and killed her, and his was to the head,” said O. C. Sheriff Coroner’s Office spokesman Jim Amormino.

Amormino confirmed that painkillers and anti-depressants were discovered in the Levens’s home, along with the handgun Justin allegedly used to end their lives. Police had visited Justin and Sara at least twice in the previous month, once to investigate a possible drug overdose.

At the time of his death, Justin Levens was 28 years old and hadn’t won an MMA match in over two years. He’d gone 0-5 in 2007 — an agonizing year in which his close friend and IFL teammate Jeremy Williams committed suicide, also by shooting himself — and was dealt a six-month suspension by the California State Athletic Commission in July 2008 when a pre-fight drug test came back off-the-charts for the painkiller Oxymorphone. For the last five months of his life, Levens was unable to earn a living as a fighter, and fell deeper into a spiral of depression and prescription drug use.

Justin didn’t leave a suicide note. There were no signs of a struggle. He and Sara had already been dead for four days when their bodies were discovered.

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In a January 2006 Sherdog profile, writer Mike Sloan paints Justin Levens’s early childhood as a Dickensian nightmare:

Imagine a dreary neighborhood where crack is sold on virtually every street corner, hookers are trying to sell themselves for some quick cash, dead dogs litter the curbs and vermin infest almost every house. Homeless people shacked up in rundown buildings with boards in place of windows and abandoned cars without tires are just an everyday circumstance. Try to imagine that but only worse and you might understand just exactly where light heavyweight contender Justin Levens used to call home.”

That home was a Southeast Philadelphia housing project where Levens lived with his mother, stepfather, and three siblings; according to a People.com obituary, Levens never knew his biological father. Their minority status — “we were the only white family in the whole neighborhood,” Levens said — made Justin an outcast and a constant target for physical violence. The experience turned him into a fighter, for better or worse.

“We finally moved out here to California [to get away from it all] but then I used to fight all the time out here, too,” Levens told Sloan in 2006. “I don’t know why I was always fighting; maybe I was an angry kid or something…People were always picking on me or saying rude things to me…I got into martial arts to deter myself from street fights. My parents were getting pissed at me all the time. They threatened to throw me out of the house. All kinds of crap. I had to grow up pretty fast and figure out what I was going to do with my life. I pretty much stopped getting into fights when I took up martial arts and got off the streets. I mean, I still got into a few fights, but that was pretty much it after that.”

After a brief stint in the U.S. Navy, Levens found his spiritual home at Ruas Vale Tudo in Orange Country, headed by Brazilian MMA pioneer Marco Ruas. There, Levens was able to hone his natural aggression and gameness into ferocious weapons. He kicked off his professional MMA career with seven consecutive first-round stoppage victories from 2004-2005, leaving a trail of bodies in the Total Combat, Gladiator Challenge, and WEC promotions. Though he would lose his next fight in the WEC — a light-heavyweight title challenge against a beefed-up Scott Smith — the UFC had already taken notice.


(Justin Levens vs. Tony Lopez @ WEC 15, 5/19/05)

In April 2006, Levens was signed to fight middleweight Evan Tanner at UFC 59 as a short-notice injury replacement for Jeremy Horn. (Grim footnote: To our knowledge, this is the only UFC fight ever held between two competitors who later died.) Though Levens hoped to keep the fight standing, he wound up falling prey to Tanner’s infamous triangle choke, which came a little over three minutes into the first round of their fight. No shame in that, really; Tanner was a huge step up in competition, and Levens didn’t have the opportunity to put in a full training camp. But unbeknownst to him, Levens’s Octagon debut — fighting a former champion on the main card of a UFC pay-per-view event — was actually the pinnacle of his MMA career, and so much of his later mental anguish seemed to stem from that fact. His decline as a prospect came as quickly and dramatically as his ascension. It was all downhill from here.

The UFC re-booked Levens just two months later for a match against newcomer Jorge Santiago, in the first preliminary bout of UFC Fight Night 5. Early into the bout, Santiago landed a pair of knees from clinch that knocked Justin cold, giving him his second UFC defeat, and his third-straight loss overall. Levens was released by the promotion. He returned to California, and picked up the last two victories of his career that fall — a TKO against Justin Hawes under the WEC banner, and a technical submission against Brian Warren at a Beatdown in Bakersfield event. Twelve fights into his career, Levens had still never made it out of the first round.


(Jorge Santiago vs Justin Levens @ UFN 5, 6/28/06)

In 2007, the IFL debuted four new teams for its second season, including the Southern California Condors, led by Levens’s mentor Marco Ruas. Levens returned to light-heavyweight to compete for the Condors, while his friend Jeremy Williams was the team’s middleweight representative. The IFL gig could have been a springboard to even greater success for both fighters — perhaps a ticket back to the UFC for Jeremy. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out that way.

Levens struggled at his old weight class. In his first IFL appearance in January, he was out-wrestled by Reese Andy, losing a forgettable unanimous decision. Less than two months later, he was smashed by league standout Vladimir Matyushenko, losing by first-round TKO. Meanwhile, his partner Jeremy Williams was flourishing, submitting Bristol Marunde and Kaz Hamanaka at the same events, both by first-round triangle choke. Williams, who had taken a four-year hiatus from MMA competition to focus on coaching, was suddenly on a win streak again, and finally gaining some recognition in the sport — which made his sudden suicide all the more inexplicable.


(Levens and Williams demonstrate some submissions on ‘The Best Damn Sports Show Period,’ promoting the IFL’s second season.)

On May 5th of that year, Jeremy Williams pulled over to the side of Pacific Island Drive in Laguna Niguel and shot himself. He left behind two young daughters and a six-months-pregnant wife. According to an OCWeekly profile, Williams had moved into his parents’ house two weeks before he died due to marital problems. His suicide knocked the wind out of everybody who knew him. Said his close friend Chris Dinicola: “When you hear that classic line — ‘Oh, that’s the last person I would expect would do that’ — well, [Williams] was the last person I would expect to ever do that.” The coroner’s report on Jeremy confirmed that he had no drugs or steroids in his system at the time of his death.

Levens was “never the same” after Williams’s death. And yet, he competed at the next IFL event just two weeks later, filling in as Jeremy’s middleweight replacement. From the OCWeekly article:

Alternate Justin Levens, who fought in Williams’ place, couldn’t complete a prefight interview. “Jeremy was a great guy,” Levens said. Then he froze. His eyes welled up, and he lowered his head. Under his breath, he said, “I can’t fucking do this.” Levens was beaten badly in the first round by Brian Foster. Afterward, a television interviewer tried to speak to Levens again. He broke into tears and dodged the camera.

It would be Justin’s last appearance for the IFL. That fall, he suffered his fourth and fifth consecutive losses, dropping a decision to Nathan James and getting submitted via triangle-choke in a controversial Palace Fighting Championship bout against Kenny Ento.


(Justin Levens vs. Kenny Ento @ PFC 4, 10/18/07)

Grieving for his friend, and failing in his career, Levens turned to prescription painkillers to dull his emotions. His friends recognized that he was struggling, and did their best to offer help. One of those friends was Affliction Vice President Tom Atencio, Justin’s longtime friend and sponsor. Atencio offered him a payday on the undercard of his July 19th Affliction: Banned event, the clothing brand’s first foray into MMA promotion.

What should have been a chance at redemption for Levens turned into a total fiasco. Due to a delayed start-time for the event, Justin’s scheduled bout against Ray Lazama was canceled. Then, his pre-fight drug test came back positive for Oxymorphone. The California State Athletic Commission’s allowable threshold for the painkiller is 120 ng/mL; Levens registered a level of 10,141 ng/mL. In response, the CSAC hit him with a $1,000 fine and a six-month suspension. Levens didn’t bother to appeal the ruling. He would be dead less than five months later.

While Levens had a relatively public relationship with adult film actress Brittney Skye in 2007, his subsequent marriage to Sarah McLean was a low-profile affair by comparison. Then again, Levens was an increasingly private person in 2008, far away from the spotlight. Unless you knew him personally, you stopped hearing about him. And not even his close friends fully understood what he was going through in the last days of his life.

Here’s what we know: On the afternoon of Wednesday, December 18th, Sarah McLean’s mother visited the Levens’s condo in Laguna Niguel. She hadn’t been able to contact her daughter for five days, and became concerned. When she arrived, she found the bodies of Justin and her 25-year-old daughter lying together in bed, shot to death.


(Associated Press report on Levens’s death.)

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The eulogies and tributes that circulated following Justin’s death shared two general similarities: They all focused on what an amazing person Justin was, and they all acknowledged how irrevocably lost he was. Here’s Tom Atencio talking to People:

Justin was a self-made man who literally fought his way to the top. He was a gentle soul who struggled with life. Anyone who grew up under his circumstances would struggle, and unfortunately it got the best of him. He just had some personal demons that he couldn’t overcome. Fighting was Justin’s life but it wasn’t going well for him,. I know he was considering leaving the sport. But Justin was a fighter, I don’t know what else he would’ve done…Justin had a rough life; he was a good kid and was trying to get on the right path. This is a total tragedy and all you can do is wonder. No one saw this coming in the manner in which it happened.”

That last line seems rather loaded; perhaps Atencio felt Justin’s death was inevitable, even if he wouldn’t have guessed that his friend would end his life by firing a gun through his wife’s chest and his own head. Justin’s former agent Ken Pavia echoed the sentiment:

I saw him become disenchanted with his career and the sport,” he said. “I think every fighter has the earnest belief they’ll reach the pinnacle of the sport, but few do. For everyone that makes it, there’s hundreds and hundreds who don’t. So I as an agent worry about guys who have a series of losses. Justin’s a guy that held promise, but it just didn’t work out for him.”

Days after the tragedy, Justin’s ex-girlfriend Brittney Skye posted a set of personal photos of her and Justin (some of them mildly NSFW) on her MySpace profile, along with a goodbye letter that veered between heartbreak and self-blame:

THIS IS THE JUSTIN I KNEW AND LOVED! A GENTLE LOVING AND TOTALLY SILLY AT TIMES BUT ALWAYS PLAYFUL MAN THAT REALLY SHOWED ME WHAT UNCONDITIONAL LOVE WAS AND TAUGHT ME HOW TO LOVE LIKE THAT AND BE LOVED LIKE THAT. IM SO SORRY JUSTIN THAT I DIDNT HELP YOU MORE, I THOUGHT I WAS DOING THE RIGHT THING FOR YOU. I THOUGHT I WAS BEING RESPONSIBLE AND NOT SELFISH BUT NOW I REALIZE I WAS WRONG. I THINK I COULD OF BROUGHT YOU PEACE AND I KNOW THAT YOU KNEW THAT. I WISH I HAD RESPONDED THE LAST TIME I SPOKE TO YOU DIFFERENTLY. I DIDNT REALIZE THING[S] WERE THAT BAD FOR YOU AND I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT TRULY LISTENING TO YOU AND I KNOW IT MUST OF BEEN HARD TO ASK FOR HELP AND I WISH I HAD BEEN A BETTER FRIEND FOR YOU. I WILL FOREVER REGRET NOT LETTING YOU BACK IN. I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU AND NEVER FORGET YOU OR HOW YOU TAUGHT ME TO LOVE. I LOVED EVERY SECOND WITH YOU JUSTIN, WE NEVER HAD A BAD TIME OR A FIGHT. I JUST WISH I DIDNT LET THINGS COME BETWEEN US. IM SORRY I PUSHED YOU AWAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR PROBLEMS ALONE INSTEAD OF HELPING YOU WORK THROUGH THEM CUZ YOU REALLY DID MAKE ME HAPPY JUSTIN AND IM SAD I’LL NEVER HERE YOU LAUGH AGAIN.. I LOVED BEING YOUR ANGEL, NOW I GUESS YOU’LL BE MINE…. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU JUSTIN!! RIP BABY :(

Not included in the pictorial tribute was this one of Levens mock-holding Brittney at gunpoint, which must have seemed like harmless fun at the time, and is now chilling to look at.

Levens is still listed on Marco Ruas’s website, although the language of his fighter bio has been changed to past-tense. And on a tribute page created by author Carol Gambill, Justin’s mother left her own testimonial:

Hello. I am Justin’s mother. I want to really thank the person who has made this site, it is beautiful and I think he would have appreciated it. Regardless of what the media portrayed, Justin had a family who loved him very much and we miss him every single day. The last time I saw him I told him I loved him more than anyone else in the world and I would happily die for him. I am glad I had the chance to tell him that. I think sometimes he forgot he wasn’t alone. Justin had a wicked sense of humor. He could make me laugh so hard. He would get this wry look on his face just before he let go a zinger. Justin was planning on moving out to Colorado to help me here with the farm. He loved it here and he loved the animals. He was hoping to make a fresh start. I think the darkness just got too [heavy] for Sara and him.

Justin will be having a niece or nephew born the end of April. This baby was conceived on or near Justin’s birthday. (Too much information for a mother to know, I know, but it’s so cool.) Justin was the most amazing dichotomy of a human being. He would quite happily beat the crap out of anyone, but if you needed help or you were an animal, you had a loyal and loving friend. When he was a little boy anytime we walked down the street I had to give money to the homeless people or I got such a lecture from him. I was in San Francisco recently with friends and we all went home broke from emptying our pockets in his memory. Next time you meet someone in need, give a little bit, in Justin’s honor.

Justin Robert Levens, 4/18/80 – 12/17/08. Tried to do his best, but he could not.

(BG)

Chris Leben Tests Positive for Pair of Painkillers in Post UFC 138 Drug Tests, Suspended for a Year by UFC


(Leben might need to pray that MMA fans and the UFC don’t turn their backs on him in the next year while he serves his latest suspension. Ask Karo Parisyan.)

Anyone who says that the UFC isn’t policing its own athletes when it comes to drug use needs to talk to Chris Leben.

The troubled UFC middleweight, who blamed a massive weight cut on his sluggish performance, tested positive for Oxymorphone and Oxycodone in tests administered by the promotion following his UFC 138 loss on November 5 to Mark Munoz. As a result, he has been suspended by Zuffa for a year.

For those keeping track, this is the second time “The Crippler” has been popped for pissing dirty by the UFC. The first time was after his UFC 89 decision loss to Michael back in October 2008 when he tested positive for Stanozolol. Between these incidents, he also got picked up for DUI for the second time in October 2010, which clearly reveals a pattern of someone who needs help for a substance abuse problem or someone who really needs a hobby during the winter months.


(Leben might need to pray that MMA fans and the UFC don’t turn their backs on him in the next year while he serves his latest suspension. Ask Karo Parisyan.)

Anyone who says that the UFC isn’t policing its own athletes when it comes to drug use needs to talk to Chris Leben.

The troubled UFC middleweight, who blamed a massive weight cut on his sluggish performance, tested positive for Oxymorphone and Oxycodone in tests administered by the promotion following his UFC 138 loss on November 5 to Mark Munoz. As a result, he has been suspended by Zuffa for a year.

For those keeping track, this is the second time “The Crippler” has been popped for pissing dirty by the UFC. The first time was after his UFC 89 decision loss to Michael back in October 2008 when he tested positive for Stanozolol. Between these incidents, he also got picked up for DUI for the second time in October 2010, which clearly reveals a pattern of someone who needs help for a substance abuse problem or someone who really needs a hobby during the winter months.

At any rate, Leben’s boss, UFC president Dana White issued the following statement on the TUF 1 vet’s current lapse of judgment via UFC.com:

“I like Chris and I want him to do well, but based on his actions, he’s been suspended for one year,” White said. “If he needs professional help, we are going to be there for him. We want to see him succeed not only in the Octagon, but in his personal life.”

Leben issued a statement of his own, accepting responsibility for his mistake and pledging to do better for the sport, his fans, his family, his friends and his employer.

“I would like to make it known that I fully accept this suspension and apologize for embarrassing the UFC, my friends and family, and sport of mixed martial arts,” Leben said. “I’m learning that I’m my own worst enemy sometimes. I can’t succeed in the Octagon or in life behaving this way. I’ve got to make some real changes over the next year and I’m going to focus on getting my life and career back on track. Again, I’m sorry to the UFC and fans that’ve supported me since my days on The Ultimate Fighter.”

According to the UFC each of the remaining 19 fighters on the card all passed their drug tests.